Birthdays
Hi everyone
Today is my birthday and a very happy one it will be too! Getting older is purely a state of mind so today I am a year younger, and looking forward to the challenges and adventures that this year will bring.
Last weekend I was in London as you will know if you have been reading my blogs, and it turned out to be a great musical weekend, first with a visit to the Dominion Theatre in the morning to sing along with the Hillsong congregation -quite a contrast from the rest of the week no doubt as the theatre is the home of the musical, ‘We will Rock you’ – then a perfect walk around Hyde Park in the sunshine – and I even tackled one of the speakers at ‘Speaker’s Corner until I couldn’t be bothered – then, ‘West End has Faith,’ at the Actor’s Theatre in Covent Garden. It was an awesome evening and an incredible display of talent from people in such shows as Les Miserable and Godspell.
The evening was the first of its kind and organised by Katy Treharne and David Birch, with proceeds going to various charities including, Thames Reach and TearFund. I am looking forward to the next one, meanwhile this weekend I am at the Theatre Royal Wakefield to see Wakefield Youth Theatre perform ‘I was blown away.’ Let’s see if their talent blows me away.
Meanwhile as it’s my birthday and a time to reflect. I was naturally thinking of some of the years gone by and decided to post one of my short stories.
This one, ‘My Friend Dee’ I hope you like it. And yes it is a true story.
Chat soon.
Anna
Childhood memories – My friend Dee
‘Why can’t I be the teacher?’ I asked, brushing away the little blonde kiss curl from my forehead which irritated me so.
Mum had moaned about my hair needing a trim. She was right. She was always right.
She snapped. Not mum, my friend Dee. My lip curled – a habit that had formed in my early childhood from having a nervous disposition. Sometimes I sucked my thumb, but I didn’t today. Dee would tease me like she often did. It was a strange friendship but mum had told me to be nice to her. I’d promised, and couldn’t break a promise. Could I?
But it’s not fair I thought, as she ushered me once again to sit down at the desk I had learnt to hate so much. I picked up the pink polka dot pen that she handed me, but of course I had to give it back. Shame, ‘cos I loved that chubby little pen. She gave me a sheet of lemon paper from her rather fancy writing case. I should have felt privileged because she didn’t usually share her coloured paper, even though she allowed me to borrow her pink polka dot pen. No logic!
I trembled. Took a deep breath and then boldly snapped. ‘NO! I won’t. It’s not fair. It’s mean. I don’t want to play anymore.’ I dared to slam her precious chubby pink pen down onto the desk and jumped to my feet.
She looked at me aghast, and then her expression changed to one of furiosity. Is there such a word? Well she was cross with me. She was taller than me, chunkier and stronger. I stared back at her trembling all the more. But we always played by her rules. I knew she would tell her dad that I wouldn’t accommodate her ideas. She was a daddy’s girl for sure. He always listened to her. She could do no wrong in his eyes. He would say I was mean, but then he wouldn’t understand would he? He only knew her side of the story. So I ran home. I passed the new houses and went down the cobbled lane. The kids called it a snicket but my mum called it a cobbled lane. She hated me to use Yorkshire slang like the other kids, and I wasn’t supposed to go down the lane. It was lonely and quiet.
‘Continue past the new houses and follow the main road to the corner shop,’ mum would say. ‘Then turn right into Browndale Avenue. It’s further to go but it’s safer. Go past Mrs Higginbottom’s house, the twin’s house, and the house with all the garden gnomes.’
It was always safe that way she would say. ‘Plenty of people around! And don’t talk to that man who hands out toffees,’ she urged. ‘Strange man, he is.’
So mum insisted that I never take the cobbled lane. She was always right, wasn’t she? It’s so annoying when your mum is always right. But I wanted to get home quickly, so this time I ignored her advice and took the short cut. It would be all right if I walked quickly. Wouldn’t it?
Actually I ran. Then I saw the bully boys, Stuart and Tony Smithson. They were hovering in the lane looking r-e-a-l-l-y menacing. So I ran faster. They so scared me.
My heart was pounding so fast and furiously it felt like it was going to burst out of my chest. Then the palms of my hands went all sweaty and I felt I couldn’t breathe. Oh No! Please God. Don’t let this bring on my asthma I mumbled under my breath. There, I made it into the avenue. Relief! Safety! Next time I would listen to mum.
Some of the younger kids who lived in the avenue were out playing and having fun. They had coloured chalk and had drawn a hop scotch on the path. The older girls were skipping and fooling around. I stopped for a few minutes to watch them. They shouted me over to join in, but I just wanted to go home. Dee was cross with me and Stuart and Tony had scared me. Besides, someone shouted that it was nearly time for Dr Who and I certainly couldn’t miss that. It was my favourite programme of all time.
Why did I ever want to play teachers anyway? Actually I didn’t. I had enough of that at school. Dee was bossy and mean. I decided I didn’t care what her parents said, or my mum. I wasn’t going to play with her again. That was that!
My brother was at home with his best friends, Rob and Jamie. The three of them were always hanging out together. We all shared crumpets and sliced banana ‘cos my brother kept moaning about being hungry and said he couldn’t wait for his evening meal. It was deliciously scrummy. Lots of melted butter.
‘Sausages and mash later when dad gets home,’ mum said looking at me anxiously – as if to say, don’t you dare eat another crumpet. ‘You kids better eat your dinner later!’ She smiled at us, that loving mumsy sort of smile. I said nothing and just returned the smile. Then mum ushered us all into the conservatory and put on the TV. ‘Dad will be tired when he gets in,’ she whispered. ‘He’s worked seven long days this week, and no rest.’
‘Yes mum.’ I got the hidden message – I knew how hard they both worked to send us to that school.
‘Education is so important,’ they insisted. Of course Great Auntie Minnie had instigated it. She left the money to pay the fees for the first 2 years when she died. She made mum promise to use the money for our education. Shame she had to die, but then we all go eventually, don’t we? Some before others, obviously! How I loved playing at her house, especially when she allowed me to empty the shoe cupboard and count and sort. Yes, shoe shops and dressing up was the best game ever. Dear Auntie Minnie, her house was full of interesting stuff. Mum said she never threw anything out and had lots of antiques and family heirlooms in the loft. I never did get to go in the loft. I was just thinking about Auntie Minnie ‘cos there was this old woman in Dr Who and she reminded me of her, and then there was this loud knock on the door. It was a bang actually and just in the middle of a scary bit when the Dr was about to get killed. He didn’t get killed of course but we had to wait till the following week to find that out ‘cos the programme ended with an irritating cliff-hanger. Meanwhile I jumped.
‘It’s the window cleaner collecting the money I suppose,’ mum shouted. ‘He always comes at this time on Tuesdays. First Tuesday of the month. But he really shouldn’t bang like that.’
‘Mum, its Monday,’ I shouted. ‘Dr Who night. Monday!’
She popped her head round the door and looked at me curiously. My brother jumped to his feet and went to see who was knocking.
‘Who’s there?’ mum shouted. ‘Is it the window cleaner?’
She obviously hadn’t been listening to me. It was Dr Who night. Monday!
‘It’s Mr Dennington.’ Michael called out.
That’s my brother’s name. He had seen the grey haired distinguished looking man through the spy hole and recognised him. Since mum had arranged for the joiners to put the spy hole in the door we always knew who was there. She was spooked when the neighbours were once burgled and made a few changes to the house. She said as Dad worked so much she wanted some extra security. Michael tried to convince her that getting a dog would be the answer but she was having none of it. Actually mum didn’t really want pets because she said they were hard work and she had never been the same since that time we persuaded her to let us have gerbils and they ate their babies. I found the mother gerbil sitting holding…..oh never mind…it was gross!
Michael called out again. ‘It’s Mr Dennington mum.’ My brother politely let him in. Mum went to welcome him.
Oh my gosh. I’m in trouble, I thought, as I listened from behind the kitchen door whilst they talked.
‘Well I’m very sorry Mr Dennington if you thought my daughter was mean,’ mum said. ‘I will speak to her about it right away.’
I heard his footsteps walking away. I ran to the window and peered from behind the heavy velvet curtains. Mum loved them but, dad said they were old fashioned. So what! Mr Dennington was gone. Good. Then I saw dad walking down the path, he just missed Mr Dennington and mum instinctively knew he was on his way because she started rushing around putting out the dinner. She had done a quick change – she always put a pretty dress on when dad was due home. Then she called us to the table – after she insisted we wash our hands of course and told my brother’s friends politely they would have to leave. We ate without chattering too much. We had been for warned. I really was full of crumpet and banana so I sneaked Michael my sausage.
Then dad asked. ‘What did you do today?’
I waited with baited breath. Unexpectedly the phone rang. Distraction, good! Mum was gone for ages. Nan was poorly and for the next few days mum was busier than ever charging about looking after her. Doctors’ appointments, collecting prescriptions and all that stuff. I didn’t see Mr Dennington. I didn’t see Dee at school either.
A couple of weeks passed and everyone was busy, until suddenly out of the blue – mum asked. ‘Why don’t you go play with Dee? She’s home again.’
‘Home? Why? Where has she been?’ I asked. ‘Some exotic holiday place I expect. Her family have pots of money.’
‘No she has not been on holiday.’ said mum. ‘And I don’t think they have pots of money. Why did you say that?’
‘Oh! Just the way she talks at school. Like getting everything she wants. I don’t want to play with her anyway. Where’s she been then?’ I asked.
‘The hospital,’ mum whispered, as though someone was listening and she was going to tell me the biggest secret ever. ‘That’s why I asked you to play nicely with her. And I forgot to mention that on the day you ran off she was very distraught. Her father called to see me as he was going to take you both to the movies, but he said you had been mean to her.’
‘Mum, I was never mean to her.’ I hesitated. ‘But she was mean to me. She was bossy. She always wanted to play teachers. She had a new desk and chair. She was always the teacher and . . .’ I didn’t get to say anymore.
Mum had a strange look on her face. ‘I told you to try and play nicely. I told you she was sick.’
‘Yes mum, but I was sick of her being the teacher.’
Mum smiled that mumsy smile again. ‘Well maybe you could play with her just one more time.’
‘One more time.’ I asked. ‘What does that mean?’
‘One more time, before she goes back to hospital.’
I didn’t want to argue with mum, I went to my room to change out of my school uniform. It was Friday and school holidays next week so no homework. Yippee! I wondered why Dee was going into hospital again. Why had she even been into hospital in the first place? There was a bang on the door. I heard his voice. It was Mr Dennington. Why did he always bang on the door instead of knocking like normal people? He had come to take me to his house to play. That was unexpected. Suddenly it was obvious, mum had rung him. Strange! Why didn’t Dee call? We walked down the cobbled lane, the one the kids called the snicket. It was lonely and quiet but it was safe with Mr Dennington, wasn’t it? It was a lovely warm day and I had put on my favourite shorts, this really cool t-shirt and some fashionable sunglasses that nan bought for me for the holidays. I felt special. My brother mad fun of me and said I looked like a diva. Huh! We went through the little side gate into Mr Dennington’s garden. His wife loved gardening. It looked so pretty and colourful with flowers everywhere and a little ornate pond with water-lilies and fish. Dee told me that most of the fish had gone because the ginger cat from next door had eaten them. There in the corner of the garden was Dee, sitting with her back to me so she didn’t see me arrive. She had her dolls carefully arranged for a picnic with a striped tablecloth in the centre and a miniature tea-set placed neatly in front of each doll. Colouring books and jigsaws were scattered around and there at the bottom of the garden I could see the dreaded school desk and chair. Drrr…
Mr Dennington shouted and Dee spun around with a big smile showing her glistening white teeth. She had a pretty head scarf on with orange and pink polka dots and a huge pair of pink sunglasses to shade her from the rays of the sun. Pink was always her favourite colour. But I reeled with shock, gasped and my mouth fell open. ‘What happened to your arm?’ Ergh! Why did I blurt that out? I froze to the spot and felt so horribly uncomfortable.
‘Oh. Its ok, they couldn’t fix it. It’s gone,’ she said seeing my awkwardness. ‘My hair is gone too,’ she whispered. ‘Look! See!’ She removed her pretty bright head-scarf. Her golden locks were no more.
‘Dee,’ shouted her mother alarmingly from across the garden. She scurried over to carefully re-cover her daughter’s head and tied a fresh knot in the scarf arranging it suitably.
‘Trendy aye!’ Dee laughed. ‘Thanks for coming to play.’
‘Teachers?’ I asked looking into her eyes feeling somewhat bewildered, but thankfully rediscovering my lost voice which had suddenly gone all squeaky and distorted.
She nodded, and I went and sat on the chair in front of the desk, waiting for her to tell me what to do. We played. She was happy. She seemed different. Not so bossy. Softer! I accepted and let her be. It was o.k. Today it was o.k.
‘Shall we play again later this week?’ asked Dee.
‘We’re going to Majorca,’ I blurted out excitedly and then zipped my mouth quickly realising this was not the time to be giddy when there was some seriously horrible thing happening to Dee. ‘I’ve never been on a plane before. Dads been working extra hours so we could all go on holiday and we’re tacking nan.’
‘Wow! I wish I could go on a plane,’ exclaimed Dee. ‘Will you tell me all about it when you get back?’ she asked.
‘Sure,’ I said wondering, if they had pots of money how come she had never been on a plane. ‘But…you have lots of holidays, don’t you?’ I asked.
‘Me? Ooh no! We go away all the time but that’s because we have to look after my gran. She has been poorly for years and we go and stay with her. Last time we went mum did her garden. What a mess that was. Some of the weeds were as big as me. That’s ‘cos it always rains gran said. I have never had a proper holiday or been to the coast.’
‘Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat? You’ve got to be joking.’ I mumbled hardly believing my own ears.
‘It’s true,’ replied Dee.
We played until Mr Dennington walked me home. He said Dee looked tired and needed to rest. I dare not ask too many questions. I decided to wait and ask mum later. She would know. Wouldn’t she? S-o-o-o mum explained and, after my holiday I raced round to see my friend Dee. I took some fudge and some strange looking Spanish sweets that I thought she might like to try. Mr Dennington answered the door, he didn’t smile. He had a weird expression on his face.
‘I have these for Dee,’ I said holding out my gifts.
Why did this man always scare me? He asked me in and thanked me for the gifts. He said it was very sweet of me. I saw the desk; the chair and all the pretend play stacked away neatly in the corner of the hallway. You know. All the teachers stuff.
‘This is for you,’ he said, showing me a pile of books, pencils and crayons. Then he gave me the pink polka dot chubby pen. ‘Dee thought you may like to play teachers.’
‘But where’s Dee?’ I asked.
He looked sad and didn’t answer. Mrs Dennington came to explain. ‘Dee’s gone’, she whispered.
‘Gone where?’ I asked. ‘We were only away for two weeks and I promised to tell her all about my holiday and I brought these,’ I said pushing the gifts into her hands. And then I knew. I just knew. I didn’t really hear her say how poorly Dee had been. It had happened suddenly two days after we went to Majorca. Dee’s big brother walked me home. We took the short cut down the snicket. He was thirteen years old. Four years older than Dee. I was safe with him. Wasn’t I? Dee had the same as Auntie Minnie. Shame she had to die, but then we all go eventually, don’t we? Some before others! But why so young? Why so quick? I didn’t understand. I started to cry. I wanted my mum. Should I have been a better friend? I will ask mum, I thought. She would know, wouldn’t she? Mums know everything!
Forty five years later and I still remember. How interesting that those memories can be so poignant. The bullying, the friendships and the lessons learned…
